Raven Black and Stars

I died my hair a raven black. As black as tears I cry.
Reminding me of raven birds that spread their wings to fly.
I didn’t say a word. I wanted just to think,
And stayed out past the midnight moon to watch the night stars blink.

I walked through forests, touched the trees, to marvel at their height,
And lost my shoes at water’s edge, to walk barefoot through the night.
I let my tears fall silently, my heart open, asking why,
While God walked with me so silently and watch sadly as I’d cry.

I do not need comforting words. I want no one to see,
The tears strip away at pain and hurt until there’s only me.
My eyes have turned from brown to black, reflecting the shy moon,
Then sparkle as the fading stars sing that day will be here soon.

I grow in night, I walk and think, reaching for something more,
I find it there, I always do, find what I’m searching for.
The raven birds fly to the sky and God smiles down at me,
Understanding that it is my tears, that better help me see.

Not Waisted

My mind is too full to express,
This savage passion. This loneliness.
Though love I have and life and friends,
My desperate searching never ends.

My life, is slipping faster still,
Through fingers grasped ‘round solid will.
My heart is thundering strong and proud,
The screaming passions are so loud.

But questions don’t just prod and ask,
They tear at me, their only task.
What in this life is worth the trying?
Success is just a lover lying.

My mind is too full. Thoughts, too vast.
My life too short, moving too fast.
I need to know I’ve made it count.
Though I can’t see in what amount.

My failure is the time that’s lost.
My detriment, the measured cost.
Desperate to know with certainty,
That life was not wasted on me.

Eternal Youth

Mortal people. Secrets. Lies.
Broken souls and silent cries.
Weaving webs and crossing lines,
Loosing site of what defines.

So far lost from what is pure,
They think it only myth for sure.
So far gone from love and trust,
Thinking they must be memories, just.

Mortal people. Bitter. Broken.
Given these, a worthless token,
By a world, desperate for peace,
But loves to war and will not cease.

So far lost from clarity.
So blind from pain they cannot see.
For love and peace, forgiveness, truth,
Are not just things coupled with youth.

They stay with those who fight and war,
Not against others. They’re fighting for,
And against themselves, they will win,
Keeping values locked within.

Youth is more than length of days,
A moments glory. A second’s praise.
It can be kept. It keeps on giving.
It is a light of truth and living.

Other people. Bitter. Cold.
Choosing to be blind and old,
Rather than to fight for truth,
And life and love…eternal youth.

 

Winter’s Secret Beauty

Lovely little blue birds, swift and smooth in flight.
Tiny blue/brown wings, contrasting winter’s white.
Chubby little faces, fluffed up against the cold.
How I love theirs sweet songs, bright and clear and bold.

Lovely little blue birds, I’m glad you chose to stay,
And that the mocking winter has not driven you away.
Each season has it’s secret beauties, so easily unseen,
And you are winter’s secret, a lovely little queen.

Such wonder, those sweet blue birds, I watch them taking flight,
They gracefully overcome the cold of winter’s starry night.
I’ll remember to be cheerful. To sing and fly carefree.
Surviving all my winters with the grace the birds taught me.

 

Tonight I am Free

Sitting in a Starbucks, under the soft sounds of Jazz music and the smell of coffee wafting all around me, I sigh and open my laptop, skimming over the stack of emails from clients before looking mournfully at my website. Thinking to myself, for once, pleasure before business. I place my hands on the keys and start to write.

My husband and I are moving soon, to Fresno, California for a job. It’s funny how every time you move, aside from the usually packing and prepping, you always want to make sure you leave the people you love with no regrets. Spend time, have long talks and strengthen each relationship because it may be quite a while before you see them all again.

It’s easy to feel overwhelmed sometimes with work and family and every side project under the sun vying for your attention…but it’s not hard to decide what’s important when you pause for a moment and let your heart remember what it loves most. For me, that’s my family. All else is second.

Music continues to play, dancing around on various instruments and bringing a smile to my face. I do dread moving and all that hassle, but tonight I am free. Tonight I am at peace and typing away on my little laptop in a little coffee shop.

 

 

 

June’s Romance

The sky is black as the ocean’s heart,
Yet a flash of light rejects defeat.
Not brought on by the clouds and rain,
He flashes for the heat.

The summer smiles a half-moon smile,
While the fireflies slowly dance.
Twirling, flickering, while crickets play,
Sweet tunes of June’s romance.

The brooks and streams have slowed their pace,
Relaxed and singing quiet songs.
The stars begin to wake up now,
Emerging in excited throngs.

A flash of light appears again,
How he does love to dance,
With streams, and stars and fireflies,
And sweet tunes of June’s romance.

Breaking Down Walls

There is too little air…this air that I’m breathing.
My pent up distress. Inside I am seething.
Angry at weakness. Empowered by anger.
Reckless in power. Sensing the danger.

Worn out and weary. Distressed just the same.
For all of my fighting, no answers to claim.
Angry at weakness. Resigned to be still.
Seething in silence…breaking my own will.

Sledge hammer in hand, I break down the walls.
Crying and hurting…watching them fall.
The rooms here are empty. It’s only me here.
Angry at nothing, but at my own fear.

My weakness, my failure, the goals that I set,
I missed. I tried. I drown in regret.
I splash coats of paint. Can’t cover the words.
My reservations and composure fly off like birds.

I sit on the ground, breathing and listening.
I look out the window, the stars…calmly glistening.
It’s sweet now, the air. The air that I’m breathing.
Gone are the walls, the fear and the seething.

I’m only broken by my own expectations.
Unwilling to weaken. Must break reservations.
Empowered by silence, and focus, and air.
Calm, restless spirit, and find your repair.

Restless Wanderer

There is no resting place for the restless wanderer,
He searches but can not find,
The peace that his is looking for,
Of heart and soul and mind.

A dream dwells within his heart,
A vision always in his eyes,
And even though he always searches,
His dreams are unrealized.

Day by day he goes on believing,
Night by night his tears fall to the ground.
Not for his treasure yet undiscovered,
But for all the things that he has found.

Haunting dreams and calling roads,
The horizon beckons still,
And even though every step breaks his heart,
He is searching still.

There is no peace for the restless wanderer,
He will search forever more,
Until he finds his dream at last,
Until he finds what he’s searching for.

Dare To Dream

Untamed lands and fearless wonder,
Lightning bolts and roaring thunder,
Wild winds that cry into the night.

Tempted fate and fierce illusion,
That builds into a strong conclusion,
Soon to come into the realm of sight.

Flaming suns and glowing stars,
Mystery healing the deep scars,
That you get from daring to believe.

And when you venture out again,
To live among the world of men,
You cling to all the things they can’t conceive.

No holds barred on imagination,
Dreams are born from stimulation,
Of the hearts ability to love.

You find that everything worth while,
Is not found in pomp and style,
But comes from when you strive to rise above.

And sometimes you can hold your own,
Better when you stand alone,
So I wouldn’t let the mocking people sway you.

For I know that all existing,
You’ll find if you keep persisting,
So don’t let a single thing delay you.

Life can be the ultimate wonder,
When you bury, six feet under,
All the things you know that hold you back.

Get a move on, life’s not waiting,
Don’t you just sit there debating,
Take you dreams and passions off the rack!

Dancing In The Rain

Tear drops stain my pillow. The night slips into day.

My bed has been made all night. Outside the sky is gray.

A breeze comes through the window. The silence rips my heart.

I walk along a broken beach. The rain begins to start.

 
I close my eyes and listen. There is music. There is pain.

There is only one soul on the earth…walking in the rain.

I want to release the heartache. I watch the seagulls fly.

One thing I love about the rain, is no one ever sees you cry.

 
The ocean spray around me. The sheer beauty life can hold.

You realize pain should not be feared. It makes you very bold.

Footprints in the wet sand. I taste the sky’s sweet tears.

And as I lift my arms above me, I drift away from all my fears.

 
I close my eyes and smile. My feet move light against the sand.

My coat flaps in the wind. My hair has gone wild. I can finally understand.

I am spinning. I am gliding. It’s not easy to explain…

The overwhelming passion of just dancing in the rain.

 
There are teardrops all around me. But they will stop someday.

There are crossroads that surround me, but I know I’ll find my way.

And whenever there is heartache, and whenever there is pain,

I know I’ll find peace, and passion…by dancing in the rain.

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